Without a Doubt

Well I've come to a decision. 7 months and 7 days after the layoff heard round the world (my world, anyway), I am making the big move. Sick of running in place, I've decided to run to a place. The city has always been part of the plan, and rather than continuing to spin my wheels, I'm throwing caution to the wind and diving in headfirst. My spirit has been slowly broken by the past few months, and it's not just desirable but absolutely necessary that something happens. Like yesterday. And since the dream job seems a ways off, I can at least get myself to the dream place.

The magic 8 ball seems to think it's a good idea.

Is it wrong that I'm deriving a certain measure of peace and confidence in my decision because of what the magic 8 ball said? I mean, it's barely even my magic 8 ball. Well it technically is, but it was purchased for fifty cents on a whim from Chelsea at the garage sale Sarah hosted this weekend where I was supposed to sell things but ended up spending $8 instead. Along with the Ashley Judd dvd (who doesn't love Ashley Judd & Morgan Freeman kicking ass on a lazy, rainy sunday morning? Some people have church. I have crappy movies and nail polish.), the Isaac Mizrahi dress and an assortment of other secondhand things I didn't need. For some reason I couldn't let that magic 8 ball leave with someone else. So it's been mine for all of what, 6 days, and I'm already relying on it for major life advice?

Is that really such a bad idea?

Friends will tell you what you want to hear. Not that they're necessarily wrong, they're just supportive. Family will have their own set of ideas that right or wrong, can be difficult to take to heart given the source. Maybe an inanimate object that's equally likely to say yes, no or maybe is just the source I should be asking these questions of.

Its definitive "WITHOUT A DOUBT" response when I asked "Will this move work out for me?" (In the interest of full disclosure, I almost took back my question as I flipped that ball over, afraid it wouldn't tell me what I wanted to hear) pushed me to remind myself of exactly why and how I could make it work out. I'm good in person. I can meet people who might actually be able to hire me one day here a hell of a lot easier than I can by e-mailing all day. I have a reasonable financial cushion. (Is 3 months reasonable? Here's hoping.) I've reached the point where I'd rather work 2 crap jobs in a place I'm happy to be than work no jobs and collect unemployment in a place I'm dying to get out of.

So it starts. As I conquer this next challenge I've created for myself, I think I'll consult that optimistic magic 8 ball from time to time. It might not always tell me what I want to hear. Sometimes it might need to reserve judgment for awhile. Occassionally it will be gung-ho about my choices. I'll be interested to see where it takes me.